Complicated

Went to bed last night thinking abt Nakatsu. Woke up this morning thinking abt Nakatsu again. Brushed my teeth thinking abt Nakatsu. Went to sch thinking abt Nakatsu again. Chatted with Yangqin and Shirley-Whirely abt Nakatsu then got pretty high.

Speaking of which, I drank milk tea today and didn't get high from it. Cool huh? I told SW I'd control myself and I did. I mean, yes, talking abt Nakatsu makes me high, but not milk tea kinda endophinal high - if you know what I mean...

Revealed a startling - ok maybe not startling - truth to Jo in sch today. And Yi Ting, I'm NOT bi for the thousandth time... =_=

Jo: "Omg do you know do you know?!"
Me: "Yeah I know..."
Jo: You know?! How you know?! Nic told you?!"
Me: "No she didn't. I guessed it myself."

Shared da truth with Nic as well. We talked a bit. But I felt that somehow our convo seemed a lil more serious compared to most day's. *sigh* I dunno what else to say...

Had piano again today. Didn't fare very well, esp during da minor-6th apart harmonic scales... Stomach kept grumbling and grumbling until da hunger pangs really affected my concentration. After the Fugue my fingers felt so stretched and mechanical again. But at least it's less painful to play the notes now. ^^

I actually forgot to record da serial that I'm so totally hooked to. But I didn't even feel like stabbing myself - much less turning da knife while it's still in my heart (are you laughing Nic?! xD) - for some OBSCURE reason. Maybe coz I know that there's still Hana Kimi.

Ok. I think I'm nuts.
But then again, I dun really find all these surprising coz I haven't watched J-dramas - something I always did last year - for such a long time already. A love rekindled may not have da same bright spark as before, but at least da spark is still there. Heh. I realised Nakatsu is a kind of person whom I really like, be it friend or the other half. Unfortunately I wonder if such ppl still exist...?

Chatted with Jo on da phone for a long time. Had a great laugh. She's coming to my house tmr so we can study tgt!! Can't wait ;D Then chatted with Nic on da phone. Finally understood da concepts of new market equilibrium. Thanks babe! Haha! Mann, made her miss 30 mins of her wonderful 妙手人心... Gaa... Sorry babe!

There are so many things I wanna share with you, just like in old times. But I fear it may not be da same again.

There are times when I blame hormones for the complications in Life.