Everything on the outside seems to be improvin'.. but the inside's wallowin' more and more..

I seem to be numbed to any goodness outside this shell. Everything's gettin' better, but so what?

I've always have this innate fear whenever I become fast friends with others. Coz I know that the friendship has a tendency to dissolve as quickly as it had begun.

What the freak did I do wrong this time?
Why do ppl love to use silence against me?

Why must I lose a friend whenever I gain one?

It's not fair.

But what's fair in this world anyway eh?

I think I've had it.

Why am I tryin' so hard anyway..?



But well, findin' a lil' comfort in the most unexpected of places..