Okay I know.

Like wth am I bloggin' at this absolutely unearthly hour right?

But I fear that if I dun blog now, these thoughts might just transcend thru the universe and be lost among the stars...and a hell lotta space-junk.. Haha. There were truly many thoughts and words in the past month that were left unseen, unspoken, unwritten and unheard of. Some I've already forgotten, others remain in my head, and now I wonder to myself, if I should pen 'em down here, the feelings associated with those thoughts/words would seem inappropriate..or maybe just outta place, awkward, I dunno. Who cares? Haha.

Just one more day to a month from my last more-or-less proper post.

Imma just type down anything that comes to my mind:

Hmm..

Firstly, would like to say a big SORRY to all my babes for being so awesome and concerned to send me so many msgs to ask how I am and everything. SORRY I didn't reply your msgs. I didn't think that my little act was such a selfish one indeed.. For that I still feel guilty abt. I hope you babes can understand that it was really difficult for me to reply not just you, but everyone else, at that time coz I was certainly emotionally-unstable TTM (that's To The Max for you) and I felt that the more I thought abt it, the more I would bawl and sob; and bawl and sob I did. Thereafter I was too tired of havin' to explain myself so many times of what happened, what would happen etc. Would appreciate it tho, if no one repeatedly asks me if the appealin' would even be successful. It is even more difficult for me to answer you now, how everything's comin' along becoz nothing is definite yet. The only thing I can do now is to wait and pray, and wait again for what BP's gonna say. In the meantime, I refuse to let myself be beaten down by anymore doubts which may come my way before his answer. When the news comes, I promise to let you all know. I'd have nothing to hide then. And until then, Imma keep being hopeful. Call it blind optimism or whatever I dun care, and I certainly do not have time nor tolerance for the ppl who put me down, intentionally or unintentionally.


I went for the meet-Neil-Gaiman-session with Jiahao and was certainly in for a treat! I mean, excludin' the part when we queued for more than 2 hours in the hot sun which made me so giddy and pukish. But well, Cartman saved the day! He's so awesome funny mann, especially when he belted out his version of Pokerface. Awesome funny stuff mann, ask me and Imma send you that sound clip when I can.

So I was tryin' to say that I absolutely ADORE Neil Gaiman, for writin' awesome comics and books, havin' such a great sense of humour, for so patiently signin' every single book brought in front of him, and for returnin' me with a tight embrace when I asked for a polite handshake. I swear it felt like time stopped for that 3 whole seconds.. Pure awesomeness, so much so that my tears almost burst forth in torrents.. So yeah I can finally understand why fans do what they do, with their determination to queue and all that kinda crap. Everything feels so worth it in the end. Haha((:


Watched Haeundae (not sure of the proper spellin'..) some terror-tsunami show with Peiyi. That poor girl was like tearin' even in the 1st part of the movie and I couldn't help but blurt out a small laugh at her quick rxn. I know I seemed really heartless and I did tell her so, but well, she's awesome to be able to bear with me thruout the movie. (One thing I dun quite get is why she doesn't like tear-jerker films but she's so into disaster movies, which may cause her to tear just the same. Ohwells, everyone's entitled to their own beliefs and likings after all..)

Qns and comments ran thru my heart and rolled out one by one from the tip of my tongue, and becoz I couldn't hear myself, I had to raise my voice every so often to make myself heard by her, which obviously, she could hear my voice thunderin' down her eardrums but obviously, being me, I didn't know. I bet I embarrassed her pretty bad mann.. SORRY DEAR!! If you're readin' this, know that I truly am sorry! xP
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Quote:

Py: OMG you were talkin' so loudly I wanted to punch you mann!
Me: Whoa thank god you didn't, coz if you did, I would've screameddd.
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There was this father in his mid-fifties (I presume) who brought along his teenage son to watch it too. The father was pretty irritatin'. Okay very irritatin'. First he sat on our seats before we reached the cinema, which was totally off becoz everyone could see the seat no.s in the light, which wasn't that dim. See if you can visualise, his and his son's seats are denoted by 'F' and 'S' respectively, and our seats by 'O's; empty seats by '[]'s and other ppl's by '#'s.

So this was the arrangement:
[][] ##FSOO#### [][]

He and his son actually sat liddat:
[][] ##[]FS[]#### [][]

If he wanted the centre seat, he should've bought 'em before us mann.

So after everything was nice and settled, the father (of all ppl, seriously =_=) started clappin' everytime the mega tsunami devastated the area. Really clappin'. I mean, it wasn't a loud clap, but his action was still audible. Peiyi was actually cheesed-off enough to sit up time and time again to glare at that man who really wasn't portrayin' himself in a positive manner in front of his teenage son. But thank goodness the son was polite or perhaps, matured enough not to clap along. Sure, the father may be jokin', but what kinda msg is he sendin' to his young son? Oh, that "we're watchin' a disaster movie to gloat at the loss of pathetic human lives" ? It all seemed so ridiculous to us, dun you agree?

That tsunami movie was pretty good as a whole I'd say. Chock-full of emotions and the devastation felt pretty overwhelmin' to me at times. Maybe that's only half as overwhelmin' as what actual tsunami victims experience..? Hmm.. That'll be awful.. xP But I must say the movie came across as a lil' exaggeratin' at times, dunno if it's coz I'm a geog student or coz I was tryin' to minimise the destruction mentally by castin' some parts of the movie aside as being 'unrealistic'..? Am I even makin' sense? Haha.


OH YEAH. Coraline in 3D was a BLAST!! Seriously. My first 3D movie! Haha honesttt. The songs, sounds, animation and script was all beautifully done. Almost seamlessly done, in fact. Everything fitted in just nicely like buttons to button holes (note the pun). ;DD And well, the company was certainly enjoyable((:


I still love Marianas Trench and their lead singer Josh Ramsay (ram-see).


It's funny how we always talk abt the ideal type of boyfriends we all would like to have but when we meet someone who fulfills those "requirements", there's no chemistry at all.


It's sad how we humans always use our own standards to measure others, then blame 'em for not puttin' in effort to live up to those 'standards', that we find so "easy" to live up to. But of course.


Haven't ran in abt a month!! Am absolutely flabby noww. xP


I'm fantasizin' abt k-in' Every Heart and God Knows.


I like growin' up. Coz it brings me closer to my family, my friends, and to myself. I really marvel at how each year everyone seems to think more for the others, and less so for themselves solely; how one by one, everyone steps up to assume more responsible roles which they start playin' each role better and better; how everyone starts to understand one another a lil' more than they used to.


I think I've fallen in love with dresses. =O


I just found out that QE is an alternatives fan too, like Jiahao. I dun like alternatives. Okay maybe I'm okay with 'em. When I'm listenin' to 'em to lull myself to slp. Haha.


Work's such a chore.. Yes, I'm now workin' in Mum's company, in a different department, surrounded by 3 beautiful and incredibly nice women who are really really fluent in Malay, even when one of 'em is a Chinese lady. In fact, there're several ppl in my office who're fluent in Malay. Gosh.. Makes me feel so envious and all.. I wish I can speak fluent Malay too mann. Then can chit-chat tgt with 'em. That'd be awesome. Gotta call up Nadiah my beloved "Ibu" to teach me now!!! Time really flies mann, it's the 3rd week of Nov, which is also the 3rd week of my one-month stint. Am so gonna miss those lovely ladies at my workplace..


Oh yeah, I realised recently, that I still miss him. Yes, it's been almost a year. I deleted Mockingbird from my playlist last week, the only song that still links me, to him. The only song I've kept in my playlists for, yes, almost a year. Yes, I know I said I've let go of what short 'past' I shared with him. But well, I bemoan the loss not of a crush, but the loss of a good, old friend. Some ppl can certainly make you feel like you've known 'em since forever.


The time now is 03:04. Wow so fast?! Time for bed. Gotta work again tmr. Oops I mean work again later today. Will reply tags when I can!

Good night, World.


I think I love you but I'm better off on my own..

Quote Of Yesterday, baby:

Qiao En: There's 自恋, Epic 自恋, and then there's Qiao Yi 自恋.
Me: Oi!!

QE: There's Fail, Epic Fail, and then there's Wei Ren Fail.
Me: *after QE does something stupid (as always xD)* Oh, so now there's Fail, Epic Fail, Wei Ren Fail, and then there's Qiao En Fail lah!
WR: *laughs*
QE: Thou shalt not use the words of The Qiao-ster!!
Me: You do realise that I'm ALSO The Qiao-ster?!
WR: *laughs even harder*