I know it's the right thing to do.

"Once in a lifetime."

I know I should sacrifice my personal pleasures and leisure activities and whatnot, for respect.

But I can't get rid of this naggin' feelin'. This supes unhappy feelin' inside of me.

In Life, we dun always get our way. and most times, my way is usually selfish. for my own enjoyment, for my own greed, for my own achievement.

After the initial sadness at the news of his death, I couldn't seem to feel anything more - and that disgusts me. Why, why am I so unfeelin' to an old man who has sacrificed his work, his family, and his life to help us? Why am I so immature? Why am I so selfish?

I needa learn to think for the masses. To put others before myself.

I know it's the right thing to do.
And I will do it.

But first, I needa shake off this slight unhappiness. ):